Read the stories about the 18 years old girl fall to her death due to relationship problem.... Just wanna share with you guys here;
I have never had good grades in my study life before. Even if pass, I never gotten what I expected. Unlike my friends, they studied better then me. No matter how hard I tried to study, my grades were like shit. I received my Nitec cert and it disappoint me so much, that I even thought for ending my life. I thought for jumping that fking bulding and just end it all.
I couldn't think straight, I was a huge burden to my family. Everything I do, alway trouble them. I know how they feel.
One day, I told my mum I feel like ending my life, cus my results were a disaster and I know deep down she is dissappointed in me. But of course, which mum will want their love ones to die?
When I told her that, My heart felt heavy, like there was 2 stone pulling my heart, I was controlling my tears badly.
After mum told me alot of stuff, I still can'y get over the facts that I was a shit person. Till now, I still have this fvcking thinking. I'm so disappointed in myself.
I have never gotten into a long relationship. I only had guys who tried to play with me. Never been serious at all. Even if there is one, its not the one that I like.
Now, I'm trying hard, by encouraging myself. Found a job, hope I can stable down.
(Back to my hug.♥)
Super duper long time since I last post alright. Thus year been to Genting for about 3 times, up coming at July would be my forth time going.
From April till now, din go Genting, craving like shit to go! I alway miss there everytime! What's wrong with me dey!
Anyway, finding a job now, they said job is hard to find, but for my case, its easy. But the only poblem is that, I keep rejecting interviews. I don't wanna go, cus I don't wanna work!I have no choice, I gotta work, if not I dont have the money for my driving licence
Getting a Diploma course on Business Adminstration. Woootzz! Diploma man, never in my life will I hink that I will get a Diploma course. Cert is recognised by international school, so yea, definitely taking it! :DDDD
So excited, cus I told mum that I will bring her and dad to Australia, Melbourne. I promise her that, I will bring them go. I will!
Till I found a job, keep post again!
Byee! :D
(Back to my hug.♥)
Monday, May 16, 2011
